Goodnight Love

Goodnight love. You will be in my thoughts. My prayers. My heart.
I've watched you all day and wish we weren't apart.

I wake up with you. I sleep with you. I laugh with you.
You are with me only in my dreams. I am lonely without you.

Where did you go today? Who did you speak to? Are you alone?
My heart says no. It brings a chill to my bones.

Why not me? Am I not good enough? To be the reason for your smile?
You held my hand. Kissed my lips. Filled my life. But only for a little while.

I hang my head down low. Cry a few tears. Bang my fist upon the floor.
Scream your name in agony. Breathe deeply. Hide behind my door.

If only you could see. With eyes that are not shut. Feel me and see.
I am real. I am me. At first that was enough. But now you let me be.

With fear and reluctance I continue on. I cannot, I will not be sad anymore.
For there is one out there. Happy. Loving. Beautiful. To which I will always adore.